I don’t know what’s going on with me…

But I’ve been having some attacks of conscience where my love life is concerned. I’ve been slowly rekindling a friendship with one ex, (It was her birthday today, so I sent her a simple e-card) while feeling the need to send a letter of explanation to another ex. I’ll explain the latter as it was more recent. I met this girl and fell hard for her while we were penpals when she was in an Ohio jail. No, I won’t tell you why as it’s none of your business. Anyway, she was released and deported back to Canada. She broke the law so she was sent home. We tried to keep the relationship together and it worked for a while… then the pandemic hit and she caught it. She recovered, and I was glad. Soon, she stopped talking to me, and unknown to me she thought I had done the same. I kept waiting for a message or word that never came. Both of us thought the other ghosted them. It was a comedy of communication errors of the worst sort. When I did try to reconnect, she bit my head off. That made me angry for a long time, and I finally realized I was wrong and sent her a letter by email. Whether she reads it or not is her choice, but I put the olive branch out and it’s up to her. I’ve no hopes we have any further relationship to have, but at least I cleared my conscience. That’s all I can do.