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Fell into the trap again… still a happy ending…

I fell into the trap that many men have fallen into… loving too many women at once. The woman I mention in the photos in this post is my true love and fianceé, Linda. For a while, I’ve been feeling like she’s stringing me along, but these photos prove that’s not the case. Still, in the midst of not trusting her, I got in deep with someone else. I know, weak and big-hearted I am and i got myself in a spot. I tried cutting it off once, but tears and cries made me go back. Was it stupid? Yes, it was. Should i not have reopened communication? No, i shouldn’t have. Seeing the above pictures made me more resolved to trust my darling and cut off all these weirdos that contact me out of the blue trying to win my heart. I should have listened to Linda in the first place and blocked these people. Live and learn i guess.

I don’t know what’s going on with me…

But I’ve been having some attacks of conscience where my love life is concerned. I’ve been slowly rekindling a friendship with one ex, (It was her birthday today, so I sent her a simple e-card) while feeling the need to send a letter of explanation to another ex. I’ll explain the latter as it was more recent. I met this girl and fell hard for her while we were penpals when she was in an Ohio jail. No, I won’t tell you why as it’s none of your business. Anyway, she was released and deported back to Canada. She broke the law so she was sent home. We tried to keep the relationship together and it worked for a while… then the pandemic hit and she caught it. She recovered, and I was glad. Soon, she stopped talking to me, and unknown to me she thought I had done the same. I kept waiting for a message or word that never came. Both of us thought the other ghosted them. It was a comedy of communication errors of the worst sort. When I did try to reconnect, she bit my head off. That made me angry for a long time, and I finally realized I was wrong and sent her a letter by email. Whether she reads it or not is her choice, but I put the olive branch out and it’s up to her. I’ve no hopes we have any further relationship to have, but at least I cleared my conscience. That’s all I can do.

Can someone explain something to me?

What started this trend of girls falling (supposedly) deeply in love with someone over text message (text message, WhatsApp, Instagram, etc.) Then asking their “beloved one” for money via gift cards and the like? I mean I’ve fallen for scams similar to this before, but now it keeps happening. I guess I’m an easy mark. The worst thing is these women contact me out of the blue. Honestly, they contact me out of nowhere then they try their scam. Now when money is discussed I block and report. My question is, how do they think guys are that stupid anymore?