I was feeling rather frustrated with her and I wrote this letter to her.
Peter Aaron Parent
390 Shaker Blvd.
Enfield, NH. 03748
25th August, 2021
Dearest Linda, heart of my heart,
I’m writing this today, mainly because I need to get something off my chest. It’s nothing bad baby, but I just need to say this. You know, how much I love you, right? You know how patient I’ve been, and continue to be. Sadly, my patience is wearing thin. The last time we had this conversation, you said you’d be here in July. Now, it is almost September and you still aren’t here. You keep telling me to be patient, but how much longer am I supposed to wait? You keep moving back the date, trying to tell me you’re trying to get something taken care of, but in the amount of time you’ve taken to “get things together” down there, wherever “there” might be. I’m really getting tired of holding on. I love you baby, more than my own life, but I have yet to see any evidence, beyond these funky checks and failed deposits, of you trying anything to get up here from wherever you are? Tell me, how much longer am I supposed to wait for you, to what seems to me, to never come? I’m really starting to lose trust in you, and I don’t want that trust to disappear.
Anyway, now that I’ve got that off my chest, I have to tell you not to be too upset with me. I just can’t reconcile what on earth could be taking so long? With all the money I’ve sent you over the months you could have been here already months ago. I know, I’m still complaining, but you’ve got to understand where I’m coming from. If you were in my place, how would you feel being left on the hook this long? I think you’d be frustrated as well in your case too.
Well, all complaints and worries done, but I just had to say it. I’ve been working so hard lately I haven’t had time to really relax and think. When I think I tend to think things like I said above. I hope this doesn’t make you think I’m stopping loving you, because that isn’t true. You want me to be honest with you, but sometimes the things I have to say can’t really be expressed in a WhatsApp message or a text. Big thoughts need a bigger outlet. I do love you, and I hope you understand my concerns. I just need you so much that the loneliness and wanting you here overwhelms me. When that happens the bad thoughts and worries bubble to the surface and I have to write them out. Please forgive me baby.
Well, now I truly am done. I’m tired from the writing of this and soon I’ll sleep. I just needed to “clear the air”. I’m not angry, or upset at you, just needed to tell you all my thoughts of late. If that upsets you, I’m sorry, but I’m sure you’d rather know when I feel something’s wrong. I love you Linda, don’t ever doubt that. After all, I pledged my life and love to you, and I keep that pledge. I am, as always…
Forever and truly yours,
Peter Aaron Parent
P. S. I’m not saying I’m stopping waiting for you, I’m just saying how I feel. Don’t think I’m giving up.
I mean she keeps pushing back her arrival date and it’s fair to feel this way, don’t you think?
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